I am not a pop radio kind of gal. In fact, while driving I prefer to listen to books on tape (reminder: need to confess to the library that I lost an cd) or the sound of pure undefiled silence. And then I remember that I have a van full of children and that silence while in the car is a near impossibility so we end up listening to "kid approved" music or dvd's. There are moments when complete silence in achieved but usually only when I am alone. I don't make a sound:-)
So on the rare day that I was alone and listened to radio in the car I heard this great song that I thought could be my theme song for this year: Wake Me up by Avicii. Apparently, it isn't new and I am just late getting to the party. I am usually a very timely person, but I have checked out of more than one thing this year. And in the case of popular music it has been a very long time.
Back to the song. Wake me up when it's all over (please), when I am wiser and I'm older (yes - but not too old). Can I please sign up for this? The past year has been insane and we are at the tail end of one part of insanity and bracing for another. I really just want to go to bed and wake up 6 weeks from now when all the stuff I don't want to deal with is over and I don't have to think about it again. I am tired and worn down. I feel broken and at my wits end. I am ready to give up but I can see the finish line I just don't know if I have what it takes to make it.
This has really been a common theme for basically my entire life. I just want to check out and reappear when the hard part it over. I realize I have made it through some pretty crazy things and have come out of top. Not the kind of physical difficulties that are obvious, but the deep emotional and mental torments that can drive a person crazy.
Then I read about a woman who lost her husband and was left with three small children only to find out the next day that she is pregnant. Yeah, I don't have anything to complain about. Nothing like a dose of that to snap you out of it. Somehow the difficulties of building your dream house don't see to rank on this list of things to get down about. More on that to come.
Between the song and all the terrible things I know happen to people, if this is all I have to deal with then checking out is just plain cowardly. Maybe this song is really my anti-theme song. I can do this, no reason to fall asleep and miss all the good character building that is going on right now.
Do you have a them song for the new year?